These past 2 years have been a rollercoaster ride of emotions. There were so many things that happened and thank God, I was able to make it through all the times. I have lost, gain, cried, hate and loved. But there’s just one thing that I have yet to learn, which is to control overwhelming emotions. Its not something I hate but definitely something I would wish to learn how to take control. I cried when I saw how my grandfather struggled on the hospital bed, I cried when I heard the doctor said “ Your family has to be mentally prepared, I don’t think he has many days left”, I cried when I received a call from my aunt announcing my grandfather’s death, I cried when I saw him lying in the coffin, I cried when I heard the song ‘Fix You’ for a few days and I teared when I received a condolence/are you ok text. I wouldn’t say allowing myself to succumb to my emotions is a sign of weakness, but rather, courage. I have learnt to love and cherish the people I love. I knew it from the moment I saw my grandfather in the coffin. I took a peep inside and saw his sunken cheeks with eyes shut closed and my heart sank immediately.Before I knew it, my eyes were soaked with tears. I begin tearing and said to my mother who I was hugging closely, “ He doesn’t look like himself.” As I said that, it somehow seem like as if I’m telling myself that he is really died. I begin tearing up more as my mind took me into a land of infinity thoughts. I wondered what was he thinking the last few minutes before he died. Did he want us to be with him? Did he want to say something to us? The thought of him all by himself on the bed and catching his last breath was so hard for me to accept. I felt that he was defeated by time, and so was I. But I knew it was good for him to go. He was obviously suffering and unwilling to share his pains or any of his thoughts. Or is it that he just cant remember them? Thinking back, I think God gave him more time to live than we could ever asked for. It all happened in 2011 when we knew he suffered what most eldery people do, Dementia. His body begin to weaken drastically after a fall which caused his brain to suffer from internal bleeding. He was in coma for a week or so. When he regain his consciousness, he was unable to eat and then when he could, he was unwilling. Not only until we found out a secret, he only wanted to eat unhealthier food. When we fed him fries, hashbrown and ice lemon tea instead of bread,rice or water, he willingly gave in to a few mouths. When he was discharged, things became worse when his memory failed him every single day. He throws tantrum in a minute and forgets it the next. But I will never forget the face when our family sang his favourite hokkien christian song, Hold My Hands. He was happy. He was himself, the child of God. And when I received the phone call on 24 Nov, 4.30am, he left this temporary home of 80 years and went up to be with God. For this, I am happy. Let love conquer all hate.

WISHLIST

1. JAZZ ALBUM~

 I dont have any singers in mind, so you'll need to choose it yourself :)


2. FLATFORMS!!!!!!! I really want a pair of flatforms so that i can look taller. But then again, i dont
   have any pictures for you guys to choose from.OH a very important information, my size is ard 6-7/
   38-39.

3.Camera sling strap!!! The length must be long enough for me to sling it!
   for example,
  


5. BIG EAR STUDS.

   Unfortunately, it'll be hard for you guys look find a suitable one as i would only be able to wear the          
   ones made of plastic!

6. APPARELS. I really have no clothes. need you guys to dress me up!!!!!

   Something not too elegant but not too boyish as well~~

7. BASEBALL JERSEYSSS!!



8. SNACKS!!!!FOOD!GOOOOOOOOOOOD FOOD!


good luck~~~

As all of you might already know, I got a B for PW.

I really dont know how to feel.

I always believe that if i do my best, God will do the rest. So naturally, i felt that i'd get A. So getting a B really means something to me. I really dont get why after so much hard work that i have put it, like many others, i would still get a B.

But, I choose to believe that everything happens for a reason.

As much as i am disappointed with my results, I thank God that i got a B and not a C.

I choose to put my faith on God and trust His words. Jeremiah 29:11

And with the 2 Bs for A level i've got so far, i will work harder to make sure i'll do well for my H2s.

Thank God for my results.

Felt that my results was by God, definitely couldnt do it myself.

Will continue to work hard to glorify His name and not let my parents down.

:)

Anyws!!!

Watch my first film productn and comment on it! greatly appreciated!!!

• Done w block tests ^^
• SAM!!! WOOHOO
• Titanic exhibition was A.W.E.S.O.M.E
• Had my first pepper lunch meal
• Bought a pair of Vans (finally)

Really excited for the Korea trip next year w CY and XE(hopefully).

Its been quite awhile since I blogged, which explains why i'm having difficulties typing now.

Shall let the pictures do the talking..

LASALLE COLLEGE OF THE ARTS - Film

SMU- Bachelor of Biz Management

- Double major/degree: Psychology & Organisational Behaviour and HR

NUS- Management and organisation

Overseas Uni:

Columbia University

California institute of the Arts

Murdoch University

James Cook University

2012! im finally gonna be 18!

New Year Resolutions

• lose fats/weight
• grow taller
• be a better person
• learn to give in
• slow in anger + more patient
• be a better photographer
• work hard n do well for As
• better r/s w God